Boys. Dreams. Reality

I love having boys. I thought I wanted a girl, and then God gave me nieces  I love those girls I just don't want to call them my own. A girlfriend came over the other night and she brought her 2 boys one who is just 6 months old. He's a chubby guy with a nice round head and sweet disposition. She started talking about wanting a girl and if we wanted a girl. I proceeded to tell her NO and that it would be impossible because we "closed up shop" and Ernesto got snipped. It turned into a long convo about how we could get it all undone and how I love babies but I am just getting my life back (not really) and did not want to go thru sleepless newborn nights and fussy teething days and all that comes with newborns. Well 2 bottles of wine later between 4 of us and I was off to dreamland. I dreamed I had 5 boys and was questioning if I was pregnant again, which I knew in my mind was impossible. We brought all of our boys into the ultrasound room and sure enough the tech confirmed that I was expecting and it was a girl! I was thrilled and questioning when she was due...the nurse looked at me and said she could come out anytime (like it was my choice) and I looked over to the screen where I saw a beautiful moving creature that was as clear as a hd movie on the big screen. She had long flowing, glowing, blonde hair, big eyes and teeth! It was the most bizarre, vivid dream I have ever had. I felt every emotion, I saw every color in detail, heard every word as though I just spoken langueage for the first time. It was incredible. I was left thinking about having another baby that entire day. I still don't want another one, but I did think about it.
At this season in our life we are JUST starting a business, its scary, exciting, nerve-wracking. My boys are all in these weird stages, Isaac needs tutoring hence our trips to Kumon 2x a week, he does homework and kumon from 3pm till bedtime. He doesn't grow weary, I do. He's working his butt off making up for a lost 1st grade due to a horrible teacher. Lucas, a brilliant mind is learning to read, sounds out words perfectly (something Isaac never could do) loves to learn but constantly compares himself to his peers and what reading list they are on. Noah who is almost 4, is hungry for school, wants to learn, wants to do his brothers home work and has endless energy! Who is clinging on my arm right now asking if I am typing for him to go school and begs to play computer games. He gets wild and hyper by nights end and I've never had a child like this. Yesterday, while I was loading the truck with office supplies he quietly sat in the cart and said "Mom I know how to make a "W" I said "How?" He said " you just turn the "M" upside down! He just knows these things. And I like it!